Sadness is woven deep inside of me
- Gabrielle Elise Jimenez
- Mar 31, 2022
- 1 min read
Updated: Jun 14, 2023
A poem I wrote one morning when grief decided to suddenly invite itself into my sleep... totally unannounced.
I woke up early this morning
With the reminder that you are no longer here
I felt this sudden sense of sadness
And my eyes filled up with tears
The sobs are much quieter now
As if I am keeping them to myself
It’s like the ache I feel when I think of you
Is stored safely on a shelf
I can reach for it when I need to
Or pretend it isn’t there
But sometimes it sneaks up on me
A reminder that my sadness is everywhere
It’s in the songs that I hear playing
It’s in the shows that I see
It’s everything, and everywhere
It’s woven deep inside of me.
Sadness stays forever
It is never going to leave
Sometimes I am okay with it
But other times I cannot breathe
As I lay in bed and cried today
I whispered out your name
I told you that I missed you
That life will never be the same
The sadness will never leave me
Nor will the love I have for you
I’ll take it off the shelf again
It’s what I need to do
I have to work through this
All the feelings and my pain
Tears are falling from my eyes
Like a stormy winter rain
But that for me is healing
It brings comfort from the start
In many ways, each time I cry
It’s as though you are visiting from my heart
As I wipe away my tears
And take care of myself
I’ll say goodbye (again) for now
And put you back upon my shelf
by Gabrielle Elise Jimenez
Gabby you have no idea what your poems and writings have done for me over the years since the loss of my childhood hero, my brother, to cancer 14 years ago, the loss of my little daddy, now 9 years ago, and the loss of my beloved and dear lifelong best friend and mother, almost 2 years ago. What you put out there has helped me so so much to process and learn to deal with my bigger than life loss. It's been the hardest thing to not have them in my life any longer! I can't wait until the day I see them again all made new! Thank you for what you do ~ please never stop! <3
Lonely man in pain Of intentional
demise self inflicted . It never leaves but she sure departed but left a torn ventricle for me to ponder in loneliness All alone incrowds of laughing and loudly chucing strangers !
The ultimate beauty in pain
very well described. I have same feelings and same pain too
Naresh Bhatt MD
A beautiful and poignant deep within poem for anyone who experiences a deep loss.